I really should blog but I don't have much to say except this: Tax season is so hard and on top of that Mack has been sick and struggling big time through this sickness. And it's been raining this week so I've had some anger over all of it (even though we've had the beeeest winter this year!). I just want my husband to come home at night so we can feel like a regular family, so I can have a teammate helping me out, so that I can get a little breather sometimes (seriously can I just sit down and breathe for a sec?). But he can't come home much... and when he does it's for things like the pinewood derby and Lexi's musical... so I still don't get help. He's doing the best he can but I just can't ask for help from him and it's hard. I'm completely exhausted daily, I can't keep up on the house, laundry, showers, and food. Something has to fall through the cracks and it's something different every week. This week it's showers- Mace finally got one after a long time and I'm not even going to say how long. Oh this week dinners fell through the cracks too and I just hate that. I feel like an awful mother when my kids don't get a good hearty dinner. But I'm seriously running around like a crazy person and still can't get it all done. I really need to hire someone to come over so I can get out, get groceries, get organized but whenever I hire someone it's for something I have to be at and then I don't want to hire someone again for just a break for me you know? Lexi can totally be home with the kids but she has her own stuff going on so that's rarely an option. Then the weekend comes and instead of getting organized for the upcoming week, I try to do something fun so we can forget that daddy is at work on a Saturday. This post is simply a journal/venting post and I hate to sound like I'm complaining. I am so thankful for Dave's job- it is seriously the best job for us. I am truly thankful he got in with this company, became a partner and is growing his business. He works so hard for us and I am so thankful for that too! This tax season hasn't been all bad all of the time but this last month has felt like a year and I'm afraid the next month will too. Then it will be over and we'll move on again with a normal life but I hope to appreciate the normal times a little more... knowing tax season will come again- it always does!
Oh and if you're wondering what the picture is- it was my favorite meal for a few weeks. Flatbread, shredded chicken, cherry tomatoes, romaine, pesto, balsamic, parmesan, mozzarella. Oh and don't forget to toast up the flatbread- delish!