I really should blog but I don't have much to say except this: Tax season is so hard and on top of that Mack has been sick and struggling big time through this sickness. And it's been raining this week so I've had some anger over all of it (even though we've had the beeeest winter this year!). I just want my husband to come home at night so we can feel like a regular family, so I can have a teammate helping me out, so that I can get a little breather sometimes (seriously can I just sit down and breathe for a sec?). But he can't come home much... and when he does it's for things like the pinewood derby and Lexi's musical... so I still don't get help. He's doing the best he can but I just can't ask for help from him and it's hard. I'm completely exhausted daily, I can't keep up on the house, laundry, showers, and food. Something has to fall through the cracks and it's something different every week. This week it's showers- Mace finally got one after a long time and I'm not even going to say how long. Oh this week dinners fell through the cracks too and I just hate that. I feel like an awful mother when my kids don't get a good hearty dinner. But I'm seriously running around like a crazy person and still can't get it all done. I really need to hire someone to come over so I can get out, get groceries, get organized but whenever I hire someone it's for something I have to be at and then I don't want to hire someone again for just a break for me you know? Lexi can totally be home with the kids but she has her own stuff going on so that's rarely an option. Then the weekend comes and instead of getting organized for the upcoming week, I try to do something fun so we can forget that daddy is at work on a Saturday. This post is simply a journal/venting post and I hate to sound like I'm complaining. I am so thankful for Dave's job- it is seriously the best job for us. I am truly thankful he got in with this company, became a partner and is growing his business. He works so hard for us and I am so thankful for that too! This tax season hasn't been all bad all of the time but this last month has felt like a year and I'm afraid the next month will too. Then it will be over and we'll move on again with a normal life but I hope to appreciate the normal times a little more... knowing tax season will come again- it always does!
Oh and if you're wondering what the picture is- it was my favorite meal for a few weeks. Flatbread, shredded chicken, cherry tomatoes, romaine, pesto, balsamic, parmesan, mozzarella. Oh and don't forget to toast up the flatbread- delish!
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You're totally allowed to vent and you should not feel one bit bad about it. Just keep the end in sight. Time totally flies and you will make it through this month and next and your cute husband will be back home where he belongs. And your flatbread thing looks yummy. Mmmmm.
I love that this is a "teense" of a vent. I have realized that it's impossible to do everything (even with Tyler around sometimes) and that somethings have to drop, usually it's my house. It's a wreck most of the time, and then sometimes it's clean but then something else has dropped, like my attention towards the kids. You will survive this, but there is NO SHAME at all in booking a sitter for an afternoon so you can do stuff! Be good to yourself, get lots of take-out. And I hope Mack gets better soon! Sick babies are sad and hard.
My husband has a tax practice, and right around now is the peak hard time. It's been long, and it's not really over soon. I was just thinking about how this has been a very long tax season. I think that every year!! So I totally know where you're at. I do have a mother who saves me many days and I'm very thankful for that extra help. Don't feel bad about drive through meals....!! One thing that 20 yrs of tax seasons have taught me is how to be very independent here at home, but it sure gets old every year doesn't it! BTW I live north of you and know your brother's inlaws! :)
I agree. Vent away sister. It is so hard to have the husband gone. I swear it is easier now that I am divorced and the kids go over there two weeknights and all day Saturday..major breaks. But that is horrible to admit. I'm so sorry cute Mack has been sick..sick babies are so so hard.
Pleaaase post the actual recipe for that delicious flatbread thing you are eating...Sounds so good.
That favorite meal of yours is VERY healthy...so see what a great mom you are!
Don't worry...it in no way comes across like you are ungrateful for your hubby's job...sometimes you need to just vent :) It is hard to have to do things all alone...for weeks and weeks on end.
I hear ya! My husband's job is ALWAYS busy, all year long. He is not home much, so I finally bit the bullet and got help. I hired someone in my ward to watch my twins for me. some weeks she watches them a few times and some weeks I don't need her as much. I go on errands by myself or appointments or wander around the mall. I also hired a cleaning lady that comes twice a month. It is so nice to have some help. He works so hard for our family but always having dinner without him and doing all of the routines and chores by myself was starting to make me unhappy. Hiring these things out just a bit has really helped. I hope your week gets better.
This post is so true to how I've been feeling and it's so validating to know I am not just being whiny and complaining. We were living with a 9-5 job all year for so long in WA that I forgot how many people work 80 weeks. Now for 8 months a year he works 6 days a week for 11 hours. So depressing. I can only imagine how much harder it gets with more kids and more things to be at etc. You're awesome, I love reading your blog!
I feel your pain; sounds like my rants about basketball in our house!
How do you cook the chicken that you put in your little italian taco haha? Boil, bake, skillet?
And where do you get your pita bread, I can't find one I'm very excited about, would love a good recommendation~
Wishing you luck in the weeks ahead, it will be over soon!
i totally understand how you feel! i hardly ever see my hubby. last night the singing group that i am in put on a fireside for our stake relief society commemoration and i was asked to sing the song, "who you are" by hilary weekes. if you've never heard of it, look it up. it is soooo good and has the BEST message! it would probably help you feel like all is going to be okay! :) thinking of you! hope you all make it through tax season! katie
The story of my life and our "tax season" is all year! :) I get help even to have some me time and its worth every penny!
Hang in there, Denae. The saying at UOP is that "we go to work to relax." Well, for me,
staying at home with kids is much more stressful than my day job! I don't know Dave's long hours are, though. You'll make it through.
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